The response I got from a couple people when I discussed seeking a counselor/pyschiatrist was "What? and Why?" I have made a life out of appearing fine. No matter how hard it is, I have learned how to push aside what I feel and move on. I have lived my life by the mantra of if you keep telling yourself something, it'll become true. Instead, all that pain and frustration that I have buried over the course is bubbling up. And I need to handle it, handle the grief of losing family members, the diagnoses that have been heartwrenching, the frustration and bitterness that I keep tucked away. I have lived a pretty awesome life in spite of what's underneath. Now I want to live an awesome life without that.
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I can relate to this post on SOO many levels!
ReplyDeleteI first saw a therapist at a young age after a traumatic experience. Then again after I separated from my ex-husband. Being able to talk to someone who has zero bias, and who has all these great tricks and methods for dealing with my anger, anxiety, frustration, etc. I actually love going now. Whenever I have a session I let it all out and feel so (as corny as it sounds) cleansed.
It sounds like you have held a lot in (which I did for so long) which you may be able to mask while around others, but deep inside it's eating at you. Whether you know it or not.
I say go for it, try it out...what could it hurt? :)